Tuesday, November 10, 2009
My mood is definitely better than it was, but I'm still struggling with motivation, or "get up and go". I'm at a point where I know things need to be done, but I can't face the idea of even making a mental list of what needs to be done, so therefore I don't do anything, unless it's right in my face, i.e. looking after Grace. I feel very lazy and I don't deny that a tendency to laziness is part of this, but it's more complex than that. When I'm not depressed, I definitely have a tendancy to do things that are pleasureable rather than work, but now I'm not even doing things that are pleasureable, I'm just surviving.